Just Say It is my first novel, which I ‘finished’ in June 2019 and, I’ve been editing it ever since! It is the first and last time I write a novel pantser-style; I will never throw myself into writing a book again without much-advanced planning.
The idea for Just Say It had been bubbling around in my head for about 30 years. It is a bittersweet story about the volatile relationship Lisa Grant has with her narcissistic mother, who has jaundiced her views of love and relationships. Despite hiding her emotional insecurities behind a successful journalistic career, it is only after Lisa addresses the demons from her past, and allows herself to love, that she finds it in her heart to forgive her mother.
I was made redundant in June 2016, which was the perfect opportunity to release the pent up jumble of Lisa’s Grant’s life. Getting it out of my head and on to my hard drive was a cathartic experience. An emotional roller coaster ride as the words flooded out like an unblocked dam, coated in the bitterness of post-redundancy frustration, along with a few ghosts from my own past.
When I read the ‘finished’ manuscript three years later, I found too much of me in Lisa Grant, most of which I have edited out, along with the knock-on effects of my pantser-style approach, which involved hours of re-writing.
I still have faith in Lisa Grant and her dysfunctional family, and in 2020 I hope to convince an agent that her story is a viable one. In the meantime, I’ll leave you with few members of the cast.